On the red board recently there was a thread titled Night Flight Fright. It was interesting, I thought. Well, it seems I have some demons too.
Some weeks ago I posted about an inflight engine failure I had that ended with a very uneventful and satisfactory outcome. In the end I replaced all components of the ignition system, but never really found the smoking gun. After this work, I've made some shorter local flights and flown some practice approaches without a problem. Checked the engine monitor data for these flights and everything looked fine.
On Monday mornig I launched into IMC conditions for a 5 hour flight to Arlington, TX with my son with me. Frankly I was nervous, very nervous. It was like I was EXPECTING the engine to stop. No, I WAS expecting the engine to quit. After about an hour things were clear below and I was constantly picking out the field I would land in. We were at only 4,000' because of winds; therefore there was very little gliding distance and I knew it.
I seemed to relax a little after about 3 hours and actually was joking a bit when we finally got to the Dallas terminal area (normal DODJE3 arrival). I stuck my oxipulse meter on after we landed. Pulse 95!!!
It will not be good for any ongoing participation in aviation if this feeling continues. It was not fun, and flying should be fun. I know there are a number of members of this board that have had, let's call them, bad experiences, but obviously are still very active pilots today. I've gotta figure my reaction is human and normal. But I hope it's also nornal for the negative feelings to go away. We'll see.
(Maybe 50 kt tailwinds on the way back will help )
Some weeks ago I posted about an inflight engine failure I had that ended with a very uneventful and satisfactory outcome. In the end I replaced all components of the ignition system, but never really found the smoking gun. After this work, I've made some shorter local flights and flown some practice approaches without a problem. Checked the engine monitor data for these flights and everything looked fine.
On Monday mornig I launched into IMC conditions for a 5 hour flight to Arlington, TX with my son with me. Frankly I was nervous, very nervous. It was like I was EXPECTING the engine to stop. No, I WAS expecting the engine to quit. After about an hour things were clear below and I was constantly picking out the field I would land in. We were at only 4,000' because of winds; therefore there was very little gliding distance and I knew it.
I seemed to relax a little after about 3 hours and actually was joking a bit when we finally got to the Dallas terminal area (normal DODJE3 arrival). I stuck my oxipulse meter on after we landed. Pulse 95!!!
It will not be good for any ongoing participation in aviation if this feeling continues. It was not fun, and flying should be fun. I know there are a number of members of this board that have had, let's call them, bad experiences, but obviously are still very active pilots today. I've gotta figure my reaction is human and normal. But I hope it's also nornal for the negative feelings to go away. We'll see.
(Maybe 50 kt tailwinds on the way back will help )