Thanks for the advice. In my perception, what is happening is that I am trying too hard because I don't want this hanging over my head. I am happy with what I have learned, and I want to continue learning from this gentleman in the future because he is a wealth of information, a good mentor, and a friend. Every time I go up with someone I learn something. But isn't the purpose of a BFR to be a safe, confident pilot? Isn't a PPL a "license to learn"? While i was out of it for a long time and needed to get comfortable again in the air (ie getting used to chop), I didn't expect it to take so long. The longer this drags out, the more frustrated I get and the more prone to mistakes. And....flying is becoming a chore and not fun. I have done in excess of 130 landings, 4 sessions ago we did 4 simulated engine failures in one session in the pattern which each one went well and with 15 landings went well, including STOL and Soft Fields, VOR work, GPS work, two XC, diversions, dead reckoning, and a multi airport round robin. This is on top of air work. It is a repeat of my PPL basically and do far I have sunk about $14,000 into it. I feel the frustration is pushing me away and I am losing my enthusiasm. So I am soul searching now. Thanks for all the public and private advice.