Hi everyone, this is my first post here. I have been searching and reading this site for several days, and gotten a lot of great insight, but not exactly what pertains to my specific situation, so I thought I would open an account, and come on here and ask. Thanks to everyone in advance who takes time to read this. Almost 5 years ago, I had an incident where due to a very upsetting life event, I drank too much for a few days (at home), and sufficiently frightened a friend of mine over the phone (thinking I was a danger to myself) that he did what a good friend would do, and sent responders to my house. The policemen who came, very rationally explained that as usual, there is an easy way and a hard way. The easy way was to voluntarily let them take me to the hospital, where I was checked in for "alcohol abuse". After thawing out for 2 days and being cleared by the staff psychiatrist, I was released. I decided then and there that if alcohol could cause that sort of event in my life, then it was something I could do without. From that day on I removed alcohol from my life and never looked back. Then, I made a couple of mistakes. One accidental, one unfortunately not so much. A couple months after the incident, when it had faded somewhat in memory and I had moved on with my life, I went flying a few times. Now I am sure that I had learned and acknowledged the self grounding rule at some time in the past, but since I had never had a problem with alcohol and substances, it just did not occur to me that I should have reported myself after this. Once It did, I discontinued flying while figuring out what to do. I still had a current flight review and medical, but I stopped flying and let it lapse. The second not so honest mistake: I knew the medical would ask if I had any substance abuse in the last 2 years. So, before flying again, I waited for that two years to pass, and then went for a fresh medical, knowing that I could honestly answer "NO". However, as we all know, there was also another question asking if I had been admitted to the hospital for any reason at all in the previous *3* years. To which I also regrettably answered no. At the time I was irrationally trying to justify it in my mind as " well I can always say I thought they meant 'anything besides the two-year question' , or " well, I can always say I thought that said two years as well".. Trust me, I know it was wrong, and I have regretted it ever since. And yes, I have flown since receiving that last Medical. By the way, I am only private, and this is a third class. Now, my next medical is coming due again, and even if I were planning on pleading ignorance again, which I am not, the question is now "have you had ANY of these issues at ANY time in your life"... I decided a while ago I was not going to lie on the medical again, and I am certainly not going to lie to such a clear and direct question. I need to stress again that I completely separated myself from alcohol after that event 4 1/2 years ago, however, it was a willpower decision I made on the spot, therefore I did not seek any assistance, and therefore, possibly unfortunately, there is no record of seeking any assistance. Prior to this, I was just an average drinker. No DUIs, no violence, no family problems or career problems due to drinking, it was just one really bad weekend. Therefore, I knew it wouldn't be any problem to do it on my own, so the benefits of seeking treatment didn't occur to me. Obviously I would love to fly again, and yes, I do realize, that unless I were to get in some sort of accident or incident that the likelihood of me being found out is very small. However, my moral compass is preventing me from taking an upcoming medical and lying on it. So the questions, have probably become pretty obvious throughout reading this, if any of you were so kind to sit through all of it! 1) Is there ANY road to success that begins with voluntarily fessing up to the FAA about a past omission? 2) Would my first stop be with a problem case AME? An aviation attorney? 3) If you think there is some way that this could end with me once again being a "squeaky clean" certificate holder, any idea how many years and thousands of dollars would stand between now and then? 4) Do I have a chance at all at success here? Or should I quietly let my medical lapse, be thankful for the time I was able to be a private pilot, thank my lucky stars, and start thinking about part 103? ( although I'm trying to do the honest thing here, I don't think I'm going to report my past transgressions to the FAA if I'm not going to be able to fly anymore regardless. I consider myself a good person, but I am not Superman Thanks so much to all you girls and guys for taking the time to read this, based on what I have read here in the past few days, I really respect your opinions. What would YOU do? Thanks again!