Last month, I took my CFI checkride on the 11th. That night after returning to PDK and leaving the airport, I tried to call my two sisters in Arizona (Nikki's is eleven years older than I and the one next sibling above me; Barb is my oldest sibling). Both were cosigners on my Sallie Mae loans and I owe them for having faith in me to take the chance. I could not reach either so I left a message.
The next morning, I was awaken by a call from Nikki. She congratulated me for passing the checkride. Then she said she had some news for me. Barb was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer the day before. Nikki was at the hospital late into the evening while there were additional consultations with other radiologists and oncologists.
It was advanced and they were not giving her very long. Just the weekend before diagnosis, Barb was up and around. She felt like she had a cold but she was driving and getting around.
The next couple days, Barb was actively talking and was able to handle a few legal matters for a lawyer called in for her. The third day, they performed some procedure to ease the expected pain. From that point on, she deteriorated rapidly. I last spoke with her nine days after diagnosis. She could hear me but had difficulty saying anything at all though she tried. Nikki told her "Tuffy" was on the phone; my nickname at a very young age. I asked Barb, "Are you still calling me Tuffy after all these years?" Nikki said her eyes lit up. I told her I loved her and that was the last time I spoke with her.
Two days later, she died; eleven days after diagnosis.
Like the article, Nikki was told there was less than a five percent chance of survival even in early stages. Barb made it clear to Nikki she was ready to go. Barb was 66 and the mother of two daughters. The oldest, Terri, disappeared in 1986; never to be seen again. She was a month older than I. The youngest, Conni, died three years ago from food poisoning and septic shock. Conni was two years younger than I. I spent a lot of time with Barb, Bob (my brother-in-law) and the girls; pretty much a second family. Barb was ready to "go see her babies."
I was going to fly out there but had no means. As of two days later when she had gone down hill so fast, I decided that was not how I wanted to remember her. My last image was having lunch with her at a Mexican restaurant in Phoenix two years ago. I didn't want that image replaced by another on her deathbed, not able to speak.
I watched my dad die from stomach cancer over three months. With my mom, I knew it was coming for three years. I knew it was coming but that didn't make it any easier. Perhaps some selfishness kept me from making that the case with Barb. But, I just wanted that last image one from a pleasant time.
It's devastating seeing how fast such a disease can take someone. It caught all of us off-guard. I'm not sure which is easier, a sudden death or watching it coming over months or even days as in Barb's case. Regardless, I can only pray Mr. Swayze has success in beating this, the constant love of his family and friends and completion of the life he started with.
My apologies for making this more extended than normal. It was not my intent to take away from what Mr. Swayze is experiencing or his and his family's suffering. I just wanted to talk to how quickly this particular disease can take from you and your family.
As a side note, when a member on this board had learned of Barb's pending death, he offered to pay for an airline ticket out of pocket, no strings attached. I won't name that person but all of you should know there is such a kind person who does exist on this board. I declined the offer for the reason I spoke to above. I'll continue to be appreciative of that offer and thankful for such a person.
Ken